i’ve been up since 5:30 a.m. since mischa had her first bottle for the day. i’ve been trying to put her to sleep to no avail. she wanted to play. wanted to roll around on the bed. wanted to kick me for trying to prevent her from doing it lest she regurgitates her milk. after she finally settled down an hour and fifteen minutes later, i got to have a ten minute nap tops. but that was it. i tossed round and round into the little space left for me by hubby and baby but then had to get up. my body didn’t want to sleep. it knows it’s morning already. gone were the days of milking out sleep time. walked around, did the bottles, fixed the place, etc. guess my mommy brain is working at its regular pace, having been used to getting up early, making sure my body follows. lie-in has become a thing of the past.